I’ve been thinking - for the past twenty four hours that is the only thing I’ve been doing. I’ve been thinking before that too you know- a lot really, good God, now that I think of it, that’s how I have spent most of my life - simply thinking, thinking about my career, my future, my dreams, desires and aspirations, my wants, my needs – in short just thinking about me. But where has all this thinking led to. Have I been able to answer those questions which have led me into thinking in the first place?
These past two months have thrown new light into my life, probably given me a purpose, a dream. For the first time, I can probably spell out what I like and what I don’t like, what I enjoy and what I detest- especially in matters related to my career. The past two months have given me the confidence I so badly needed- but like all good medicines- they have come with side-effects- they have shown me what I want but not how to get it, they have shown me what I’ll get in the end but not what I shall lose on the way, lose in order to bear the storm on my path to my desires.
They have created hope in a man who was living a wonderfully peaceful life of ignorance.
I want my own individuality, my own persona, but is it possible to have an individuality if your views, your dreams and aspirations go against the expectations your loved ones have of you?
And then again, is it so necessary to always try and fulfill their dreams even if they go against yours? Is it necessary that in order to achieve the larger goal, the bigger dream, you have to sacrifice the small little day-to-day moments that make life so memorable? Does something you love always have to be sacrificed along the way? Does moving on always mean leaving behind? Can we not have them all? Can we not balance everything? God can, and if I remember correctly, some old wise man had said that God created Man in his image..so why can’t we? Is it tough? Is it impossible? Or is it not just worth the risk?
As usual, my thinking has brought up more questions than answers. Seriously, help me!!
you choose your dreams and your aspirations. no matter ho wmuch your loved ones mean to you, your dreams will always be yours.no one can ever change that. yes, it is possible to retain your individuality even if it menas not complying with those around you.thats what individuality means, isnt it? and one has to let go of something in order to make room for new.if we had everything together there would be no balance in life. just open your heart and trust yourself no matter how difficult that is (trust me it is difficult) and you ll find all your answers...*hug*
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