I have spent most of the last two weeks in Calcutta – after the extreme and frequent highs and the i-don’t-think-they-ever-existed lows of Spring Fest (yes, that is why my status message read “it’s that time of the year again”), it was what I had thought would be a few weeks of relaxation and the beginning of preparations for the upcoming interviews.
But that was not meant to be- it really never is when I am in Cal actually- thanks to all my school buddies who made sure that I spent this time in as “fruitful” a manner as possible. What with stupid, funny, totally different movies on Tuesdays to surprise visits to SomePlace Else for a friend’s jazz show (yes, yes you heard it right, my friend’s a singer and yes she gives mesmerizing performances), it’s been a great two weeks really.
But now that I am at another turning point in my life, it makes me wonder where all this shall be when I am gone. I would be shifting to Bangalore or Ahmedabad in a few months’ time. I will be losing on these frequent awesome little times that I have had these past few years. I am a little scared, you know, scared that the deeper I delve into my academics and work; I will drift away from these friends of mine. I have always prided myself in being the glue which has held our little group of friends together. What will happen without me? Maybe they will get another anchor to hold them ashore. But they will not phase me out totally will they? I will not do the same to them, will I? Trust me, I don’t want to. They have been the most special people in my life. They have been the ones I have turned to whenever I have been sad, depressed, afraid or happy. Calling them up or disturbing them continually on gtalk have been a well-developed habit of mine.
Yes, I probably have had these same feelings before too- four years ago when I shifted here to Kharagpur, but then distance (or rather the lack of it) had helped. Now it shall be time for a little more effort probably. But you never want to lose your most precious possessions do you? You just cling on to them till time eternity….
